100!

Hi.

I had just realized that my blog has been up for a bit over a year! It feels like it has only been a couple of months since I started starlightinajar.

Documenting life has always been something I did since young, and it has been present in many different forms. From writing on physical diaries, to blogging over different platforms, to video blogging on YouTube. I guess it's because I have a sort of obsession with the idea of memories.

Memories in your head are altered in some way every single time you recall it, be it in a big way or even down to the minute details. It's insane when you actually think about it, because what you know about a certain event now, might not be how it was when it actually happened. And this is affected by a number of factors, like for example, simply forgetting the details and being forced to make up new ones, or having a change of feelings towards what has happened, therefore changing the overall feel of the the memory at hand.

I've talked about memories in a couple of old blog posts before (here, and here), and I am still constantly coming up with my own hypotheses on how human memories work. I hope to one day, figure it all out, and have control over it. Because having constantly changing memories pop up at the back of your mind is not exactly a very pleasant feeling.

In the meantime, please enjoy my attempt at remembering the good times of the year 2012.

I hope you're all having an amazing start of the year!

Goodnight.

Prescription drugs

Hi

I made these things, they're called videos, and I am oddly proud of them even though they're all weird in very weird ways. Not weird as in odd, but just, odd. You'll find out when you click play.

I hope you watched them and it made you laugh whether it's with me or at me. At least I brightened up your day.

Welsh

I feel very odd today.

I'm not sure how to describe how I feel. I feel nostalgic, but not for anything. I feel a sense of longing, and sadness, but there isn't anything in particular that I'm longing for at the moment. I don't know if it's from me being cooped up in my room all day, or from listening to Iwan Rheon's songs. I don't know. I just feel odd. I don't think I've ever really felt like this before.

I did a couple of test shots with my Canon 50mm f/1.8 lens reversed to achieve macro shots, and I think it turned out pretty well. Just random things I found in my room. The music in the background is Follow Me by Iwan Rheon by the way. It's not for everyone, but I like it. I like him.

Guang by Quek Shio Chua

I have a brother who has mild autism. I am very careful to never use the word "suffering". My brother is not suffering from autism. He merely has it.

This short film hit me hard. I was that scumbag of a sister who would shout and scream at my brothers if they did something wrong or messed with my things. That's probably why they're more scared of me than they are of my parents.

Sometimes, I think, why me? Why my family? What did we do to deserve having someone we know we love have a condition that makes us hate him occasionally? To tell you the truth, my brother's condition is not that bad. It has gotten so much better, and I've learnt to appreciate him and keep my cool. He just can't communicate with others as normal people would. He throws tantrums. But we can't do anything about it. You know what's the worst thing about seeing someone you love have a condition like this? You're so close to being able to communicate with him, to have everything as "it's supposed to be", but you can't do anything. You can't help him get better. You can't deprive him of anything, or give him more of something to make things better. It gets torturous sometimes.

I guess people just need to get used to it, and understand. My parents are great. They love him despite anything, and have so much patience. It's me and my other brother that needs work. We know we'll get there, and my brother will get better too.

People with autism. They will probably be the nicest people you'll ever meet. Innocent, undoubting. If they can talk, they would never lie to you. Not judgemental. They get so much joy out of the most mundane things. Extremely talented in a specific area. They are amazing. They're not suffering.

Nerdfighter fail

Memories, Goals, and Jimmy Wong

Cliché end of year blog post is too mainstream, so I made a vlog instead.

Hair dye, make up, and head banging! Oh my!

Vomit & Cigarettes

Hi,

I've still been pretty busy lately, despite being past hell week, but it has still been a pretty good week. I only skipped school once this week! It's such an accomplishment. Though despite my good week, I've been incredibly annoyed with some people. I guess I should just forgive and forget.

I'm flying off for Philippines in a week, and I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it. On one hand, I'm gonna be enjoying the lovely company of my family, I get to eat all the Filipino food I want, I get to shop, go to Enchanted Kingdom and all that jazz. On the other hand, I won't have time to work on my school work and I don't get to work. I'm sure I'll enjoy the trip in the end though.

I filmed with these lovelies last week. We were supposed to film tomorrow as well, but something came up. So I guess tomorrow will just be church, hair bleaching, Starcraft, and maybe a bit of work. I thank God that I don't have anymore Contemporary Issues classes anymore, so mondays are free, which means long weekends! I actually can't wait for the start of next week.

Here is the video my group did for Contemporary Issues. I think we did a pretty good job considering most of the planning was really impromptu. I handled the wide-angle shots, but I wanted to steal Zaw's 50mm standard lens. Anyway, I think you all should check it out.

Also, this happened. I WAS, and still am, AS PSYCHED AS BALLS, AND NO ONE AND NOTHING WAS ABLE TO RUIN MY DAY. JIMMY WONG<3

This has just been a vomit of a blogpost, which I will end with photos I spammed on Nicolette's laptop when she was away. 

Goodnight.

I am a haxxor

YouTube Crush

Who's that girl? IT'S LIZA

This is where the magic happens

I will never have children

Singlish

LIVA: Balls

Believe it or not, I'm Asian

In the beginning of August, I started a thread in Your Pants asking if anyone in interested in starting a collab channel. About three months later, Whoneedsplanes was born! I am so psyched! :)

I'm the Thursday of the group and here's my first video:

Happy thursday, everyone!

Real

Hey,

It's been awhile

Since I last saw you smile

About something I said

Babe,

It's been awhile

Since we last talked for hours and hours and hours

Like how we used to every night

So is this is it, are we over?

Are you mad? Are you sad?

Why don't we talk it out

Let me know what you think

Cos I really don't wanna

Let go of what we have

Or what we had

Baby, what we had was

Real

I don't wanna let you go

Just because you're moving far from home

Well, if home is where the heart is then

My home

Will be a thousand miles away from here

I'm not asking you to stay

But I'm asking you not to run away from

Us

Hey,

I just can't imagine

What it'd be like to not have you around to talk to

Not have you around to hug

Babe,

I just can't imagine

Seeing you with someone else and knowing

That you don't think about me

So is this it, are we over?

Are we giving up that quick?

Why don't we try it out

Let's see how it goes

Cos I really don't wanna

Let go of what we have

Or what we had

Babe, what we had was

Real

I don't wanna you let go

Just because you're moving far from home

Well, if home is where the heart is then

My home

Will be a thousand miles away from here

I'm not asking you to stay

But I'm asking you not to run away from

What we are

What we could be

Don't you want to know

How far we could go

How much I could love you

Don't you think that what we have is

Real

I don't wanna let you go

Just because you're moving far from home

Well, if home is where the heart is then

My home

Will be a thousand miles away from here

I'm not asking you to stay

But I'm asking you not to run away from

Us

T1A1's Break Fast Party

This is the first in a series of videos taken during my six-week study trip in Bangkok, Thailand. To be honest, I was quite disappointed with myself for not taking more videos while I was there. Or not taking better videos. Ahhh. Liza, I am disappoint.