Rollercoaster

Today was an adventure-filled day.

I woke up an hour late for school, but completely did not care. The warmth and coolness of my duvet combined with the loveliness of the perfect cuddle weather made getting out of bed feel like torture. Fortunately, I managed to leave the safety of my room just in time to reach class for presentation. To be honest, I am quite disappointed with our presentation. I am grateful, yet disappointed. I give huge props to Aeden for doing everything though. I really can't imagine how hectic his schedule must be.

After class, I went to grab a bite to eat from the Atrium for breakfast and waited at the CCA clubrooms for Samuel and Nicolette to finish their class. After meeting up with them and having too much fun playing with the weirdly shaped chairs there, we headed off to Holland V in search for lunch! I was kind of a bimbo, and we ended up getting off at the wrong stop, but I think that was part of the adventure.

So we had lunch at Wendys, then headed back to school, only to have a free shower on our way to FMS from the bus stop. We then waited 'til 3pm to head off to the conference room for our disciplinary hearing. They basically told us that everything is our fault and that we are childish immature brats who do not give a rat's ass about anyone. This is not, in any way, true.

I was itching in my seat, trying extremely hard to control myself and to chillax before I blow up. Cracking my knuckles, thinking about QTPi, nothing could stop me from feeling rage. AHH. But I managed to control myself and not talk back to anyone! Mrs Yong and Mdm Heng would be so proud.

So basically, today's Liza is an angry Liza. I wrote a 1429-word letter of rebuttal an emailed it to Marc and the deputy director of FMS. I do not care if this will get me into trouble. At least I know that I have stood up for myself and what I think is right. If anyone is interested in a piece of my mind, drop me a message or a comment and I can email it to you.

They say we couldn't. We can, we just choose not to.

Real

Hey,

It's been awhile

Since I last saw you smile

About something I said

Babe,

It's been awhile

Since we last talked for hours and hours and hours

Like how we used to every night

So is this is it, are we over?

Are you mad? Are you sad?

Why don't we talk it out

Let me know what you think

Cos I really don't wanna

Let go of what we have

Or what we had

Baby, what we had was

Real

I don't wanna let you go

Just because you're moving far from home

Well, if home is where the heart is then

My home

Will be a thousand miles away from here

I'm not asking you to stay

But I'm asking you not to run away from

Us

Hey,

I just can't imagine

What it'd be like to not have you around to talk to

Not have you around to hug

Babe,

I just can't imagine

Seeing you with someone else and knowing

That you don't think about me

So is this it, are we over?

Are we giving up that quick?

Why don't we try it out

Let's see how it goes

Cos I really don't wanna

Let go of what we have

Or what we had

Babe, what we had was

Real

I don't wanna you let go

Just because you're moving far from home

Well, if home is where the heart is then

My home

Will be a thousand miles away from here

I'm not asking you to stay

But I'm asking you not to run away from

What we are

What we could be

Don't you want to know

How far we could go

How much I could love you

Don't you think that what we have is

Real

I don't wanna let you go

Just because you're moving far from home

Well, if home is where the heart is then

My home

Will be a thousand miles away from here

I'm not asking you to stay

But I'm asking you not to run away from

Us

All Hallow's Eve

I went to a Halloween event for the first time last friday.

Well I guess I just threw that out of the window. Don't worry, I don't think I'm ever going for another event like that ever again.

Anyway, I didn't think it was all that scary. I admit, I was clutching onto Kelly the whole time, but that was just like natural instinct after I found out that the story was centered around dolls. Yeah, dolls. The one thing that I am so deathly afraid of.

Blythe II by Wasting-time88

I'm not too sure why I'm so scared of dolls. I'm fine with Barbies, but I can't stand Blythe and dolls like that. It just creeps me out. Their perfect hair, perfect complexion, expressionless face and soulless eyes creates the perfect soul-sucking inanimate object. I think that's why I'm so scared of them.

Dolls are these things that are given to little kids, or adults too, that are supposed to being joy and mimic humans, but they don't. They are lifeless beings, forced into a life and a character that their owner wants them to live in. The thought of it is terrifying.

Clowns: by VivaLaLintu 

Another thing I'm scared of are clowns. I can stand looking at them, but I can't be around them. I remember having a big birthday party when I was seven years old and they had to get my two cousins to be my emcees instead of a clown, because I was so scared of them.

I think that being a clown is one of the most depressing jobs in the world. You put a happy face on  and you have to tolerate and entertain people and bratty, annoying little kids for a living. And you have to do this despite however you may be feeling inside. That sucks big time.  

I can't even imagine how it would be like to be a clown. I think that I would just kill myself. They are these people who go around entertaining people, but I think we all somehow know that behind the bright colours and magic, clowns are depressed inside.

I think I'm pretty okay with my fears. I don't think that they are rational fears, but I don't think that they're irrational either. I think some things just get to us and mean more to us than to other people, whether it's in a good way or bad. I find the inner state of dolls and clowns terrifying, but other people probably wouldn't have thought of it before. 

Oh well. Don't get too creeped out this Halloween season. Meow.

Makeup

I'm currently wearing B.B. cream on one side of my face and am completely bare on the other. It's interesting. Can you even tell which side is which?

I've never really been into makeup. I find it amusing to watch videos of those Youtube gurus, but I've never been one to actually wear makeup. I got a free sample of Maybelline New York's B.B. cream in a magazine I bought last month and I decided to try it out just for fun. I ended up liking it, so I bought the full-sized product! I'm actually quite surprised that I like it because I've always hated putting things on my face, be it moisturizer or face masks. It covers enough of my face to erase minor blemishes, but I think I still look like me. And it feels nice too! I know I'm not supposed to touch my face when I'm wearing makeup, but it just feels so niceeeeeee, I can't help it.

I've always been amused with makeup and how it can completely change a person's look. Like there's this Youtuber (dope2111) who makes videos of makeup transformation of her into celebrities! AMAZING. She can look like Scarlett Johanson, Angelina Jolie and Nicki Minaj! A stylist at an event I went to made me look like a pineapple. So see, different looks. Amazing!

I will never understand people who can wear makeup everyday though. It's so troublesome to wake up a few minutes earlier to paste stuff on your face and spend a few more minutes later wiping it off your face at night. Plus this is just B.B. cream! I can't even imagine the trouble people go through putting on a full face of makeup with primer, foundation, concealer, brows, eyeshadow, eyeliner, mascara, blush, bronzer, powder, lipstick and lip gloss. OHMYGOSH. It's crazy. I will die if I ever have to work at a place that requires me to wear makeup.

I like my face. I like my face with B.B. cream, I like my face without. I don't think I'll ever be a makeup-everyday kind of person, but I think it's interesting to experiment with good feeling things on my face. Whoops. I think that could go down the wrong way. Oh well. Let's just conceal that sentence. OH! SEE WHUT I DID THUR!

T1A1's Break Fast Party

This is the first in a series of videos taken during my six-week study trip in Bangkok, Thailand. To be honest, I was quite disappointed with myself for not taking more videos while I was there. Or not taking better videos. Ahhh. Liza, I am disappoint.

No explanations

So it's the second week of the semester and everything's been going great so far. I haven't been late for any of my classes, and I haven't shown up in school wearing a trash bag. Yet.

Mondays are okay. The topics are interesting, but I just hate group work. I hate being dependent on people and people being dependent on me, with this "following of deadlines" and all this kind of nonsense. I like how it ends early though and I can always meet up Arlyn for lunch.

Tuesdays are interesting. I like Location Production, but the lessons are pretty dry. I love Emilio though. I love how he goes off into his own world when he talks about the use of certain lenses in certain films. I like people like that. 3D art is also interesting. Erwin is being more retarded than ever! He's hilarious. I can see our assignments being the worst thing this semester, but I think I'll manage to pass off a good grade as long as I don't procrastinate.

Wednesdays are sort of interesting. I like Social Psychology, but the lectures are oh-so very dry. I spent last lecture watching Full Metal Alchemist on Samuel's laptop. I really tried to listen, but it was very draining. Tutorial didn't seem any better either.

Thursdays are amusing. I get to see more of Emilio's flight off to his own world. I love the module as well! I love fiddling with the cameras and the tripods and my hands get really itchy the moment Emilio mentions a new function in the camera. I can't wait to work on our assignments! I admit, I'm disappointed that we have to work in groups, but then again, I need to get used to it before I actually start working in the industry.

Fridays are incredibly draining. Our Intro To Computer Graphics lecturer is pretty cool! He's this hippie-looking musician who made us take off our shoes in class. I know offhand that I'm gonna hate this module because of a bitch named Maya, but we have a chill lecturer so I'm gonna at least try to enjoy it. Then there's Animation Foundation, which means Erwin again! I love Erwin, he's so entertaining. I think I'm gonna get really annoyed with this module soon, but I'm enjoying it so far.

I was supposed to join frisbee this semester, but I know that I'm gonna pass out during the first 15 minutes of training since I'm so unfit. Then I was supposed to go for aerobics, but it's on inconvenient days. UNFIT LIZA IS SO UNFIT. 

Anyway, our house guest made chili grab for dinner. It's so much different eating crab at a restaurant than at home. I had to keep my hair up in a high bun and my hands look like I've murdered a whole city, but it was very good food.

I should probably go soon. I'm editing vlogs from Bangkok and trying to record my new songs. Ah, I really wish I could get the motivation to work harder on my music. Oh damn, I feel like such a loser saying that, but whatever. Haha. Goodnight.