The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, but in ourselves, that we are underlings.

Filming for LocPro was relatively amazing. Maya continued to be a bitch. I saw myself in the mirror and scissored my hair off impulsively. Wanted to die when audio went off for LocPro. Completely gave up on Maya. Lacked sleep, yet had relatively enough sleep. School ended.

I wanted to blog a lot about things that have happened over the past few weeks, but the past is past and we should just get over it.

Hello, holidays. I welcome you like a sir.

Guang by Quek Shio Chua

I have a brother who has mild autism. I am very careful to never use the word "suffering". My brother is not suffering from autism. He merely has it.

This short film hit me hard. I was that scumbag of a sister who would shout and scream at my brothers if they did something wrong or messed with my things. That's probably why they're more scared of me than they are of my parents.

Sometimes, I think, why me? Why my family? What did we do to deserve having someone we know we love have a condition that makes us hate him occasionally? To tell you the truth, my brother's condition is not that bad. It has gotten so much better, and I've learnt to appreciate him and keep my cool. He just can't communicate with others as normal people would. He throws tantrums. But we can't do anything about it. You know what's the worst thing about seeing someone you love have a condition like this? You're so close to being able to communicate with him, to have everything as "it's supposed to be", but you can't do anything. You can't help him get better. You can't deprive him of anything, or give him more of something to make things better. It gets torturous sometimes.

I guess people just need to get used to it, and understand. My parents are great. They love him despite anything, and have so much patience. It's me and my other brother that needs work. We know we'll get there, and my brother will get better too.

People with autism. They will probably be the nicest people you'll ever meet. Innocent, undoubting. If they can talk, they would never lie to you. Not judgemental. They get so much joy out of the most mundane things. Extremely talented in a specific area. They are amazing. They're not suffering.

Assignments & Procrastination

 

A few  of the very many entertaining conversations I've had with people over the past week or so. I am currently drowning in assignments and procrastination, but these people never fail to make me smile.

Thanks, guys.

HOLIDAYS

FILM:

1. Aperture short
2. Down short
3. Musical trailer
4. Psychopathic short (with Kuan Hui)
5. Ben's drum cover video
6. Secret gift to secret people
7. Homemade Chocolate short

GO TO:

1. Singapore Arts Museum
2. Food For Thought
3. Ah Loy Thai
4. Chinese Garden
5. Timbre

READ:

1. The Fault in Our Stars by John Green
2. Abundance in Katherines by John Green
3. Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children
4. Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins'
5. Stainless Longganisa by Bob Ong

WATCH:

1. The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 1
2. Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace
3. Toy Story 3
4. Titanic
5. Shutter Island

DO:

1. Film videos
2. Go to places
3. Read books
4. Watch movies
5. Relax

Vomit & Chocolates

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Certain thoughts and things have been coming to mind recently. Must be the time of the year. Horrible horrible things.

Sometimes I regret what I've done, but I guess it was a good thing that it happened. I'm sad that things stopped, of course, but as lame and cliché as it is, I guess all good things come to an end.

Rocketric

Please don't judge me, but I will just verbally vomit all over this blog post. It's been awhile.

1. I should've picked up those calls.
2. I should've called back.
3. I should've left that party earlier.
4. I should've gone to the party.
5. I should've stayed and slept over.
6. I shouldn't have slept so early.
7. I should've replied everything.
8. I should've been on Skype.
9. I shouldn't have stayed at home.
10. I should've said yes.
11. I should've said no.
12. I should've met the friends.
13. I should've introduced the friends.
14. I should've given the gift earlier.
15. I should've just gone over.
16. I shouldn't have drank the coffee.
17. I should've just turned off my phone.
18. I should've just stayed there the whole day.
19. I should've just said everything.
20. I should've just shut up.

Oh, God. What have I done with my life. 

In other news, hell month has just begun for me in school. 3D Art is looking good. Animation is looking good. Intro to CG is looking fairly good. Socpsy is a waste of time, and 7issues can suck my dick. And as much as I love filming, I am not looking forward to doing Locpro at all. Oh goodness. Amy and Lava will hopefully save me.

Also, I have a lot of film work I'm planning to do during the holidays. It's the one major thing that's getting me through all my school work. I've got two short films in mind, a trailer I want to pitch in for the youth musical, me and Kuan Hui's psychopathic short film, Ben's drum cover video, a secret gift video for a secret group of people, and a couple more ideas that I've yet to put into paper. I AM SO PSYCHED.

I need to pass out now.

Goodnight.