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Hi

I made these things, they're called videos, and I am oddly proud of them even though they're all weird in very weird ways. Not weird as in odd, but just, odd. You'll find out when you click play.

I hope you watched them and it made you laugh whether it's with me or at me. At least I brightened up your day.

God Bless America.

Why have a civilization anymore if we no longer are interested in being civilized?

I believe that this is the greatest, most thought-provoking movie I've seen in years. It has a simple message. One we might think is common sense, but seems lost and forgotten in our days. Has humanity really lost any sort of decency that people have to resort to murder to get rid of the spoiled bunch in the group?

When I first saw the trailer, I immediately fell in love with the whole idea. If I didn't have God in my life, lived somewhere where what's in the media is everything, had a disease that could pretty much kill me any minute, and epic balls of steel, I would go on a murder spree. I probably wouldn't be very good though, but I'll try!

Just to amuse myself, I will now imagine a couple of scenarios where I'd go on such a spree:

• while waiting for a train and people block the door
• while getting out of a train and people block the door
• when people cut my queue
• when babies cry in public places
• when drunk people attempt (and fail) to dance on tables/platforms in clubs
• when there are riots against homosexuality
• when there are riots involving politics
• when there are paparazzis
• when I meet the people who come up with the new Disney shows
• at the office of companies like TMZ or US Weekly

That's all I can think of at the moment. I don't think I'm a particularly negative person.

Anyway, I thought the scriptwriting was amazing. Frank's lines were like polished versions of what I had in mind. The world has become a place where there are people being celebrated because they're loud, and attention-grabbing, not because they are talented. Despite my understanding of the difference between an artist and an entertainer, I don't think that someone who knows how to fake drama in their life deserves more money and attention than someone who actually works hard and does good things.

I think everyone should watch this movie. You may not agree with the idea, but you should still watch it for the mini-speeches Frank made in the film. The CG-blood is not the best, the storyline has flaws, and Roxy could get a tad bit annoying, there's no way that girl can shoot her first time with so little recoil, but watch it for Joel Murray's character, Frank Murdoch. 

Mid-life crisis at barely 19.

Hi. I am forcing myself not to say "it's been awhile".

I'm currently going through a mid-life crisis. I'm pretty sure I'll only live 'til a little over forty. And I'll probably die by overdosing on something or being eaten during the zombie apocalypse. No joke.

Tonnes of shit has been piling up on my plate and I can't do anything else, but accept that this is what I'll be having for breakfast, lunch, and dinner for the next couple of months. It's probably my fault for biting off more than I can chew, but I desperately need to do something with my life. I feel useless, unappreciated, and basically like I don't matter, and I know I'm not any of those things! Except for being unappreciated. I am that. A LOT.

I just need a change.

I need to get a tattoo that says "this too shall pass"

I need to get a tongue stud

I need to stop eating those heaven-in-a-cupcake snacks

I need to take up kickboxing or muay thai to release stress

I need to stop being so late all the time

I need to focus more on my schoolwork

I need to eat more healthily

I need to rebond my hair

I need to get a job

I need to get my website idea up and running

I need to take more photos

I need to stop spending money on ridiculously unnecessary things

I need to start saving up for my trip

I need to listen to more music

I need more sleep, at the "right hours"

I need to get my own name cards done

I need to grow out my fringe

I need to actually do these things.

Mafia

Hi. It's been awhile.

A lot of incredibly horrible things manage to happen in a span of two weeks, and that's on top of drowning in homework.

I managed to crack from the pressure of having too many things on my planner, but enough of that. The past is in the past. A lot of fun, exciting stuff is coming my way and I will be very very busy, but I am very psyched!

In the meantime, check out some of the incredibly hot and fierce photos from last night's Mafia-themed photoshoot for FMSA SMTs! Click to zoom in.

Photographer: Syuhada Hassan

Lighting: Joellyn Toh & Justin Tan

Make-Up: Bonnie Wui & Chin Zeikei

Special thanks to Mr. James Sharpe & Fendi Yusada

Weak

Crying out of frustration. It's the worst kind of crying.

In my opinion, it's the weakest. If one cries out of sadness, like if someone died or you lost a relationship, it's only normal. Crying because things won't go your way? Weak. But what rational thing can one do to that's a quick fix for frustration? Smoking? Punching a wall? Not even a drink is a quick enough fix. Endorphins from chocolate would just make you fat, and endorphins from running would only make you tired. So crying. Easy. Minimal mess, as long as you're not wearing eyeliner like I am.

Thank God this cab driver minds his own business.